Fuck you steam..
Dear Steam.

I am breaking up with you. I use to think you are awesome, but your policy on preventing me from using my American Visa card because my current location in Korea. You might not realize it, but many people in your consumer demographic often spend time outside of the USA and use their American account to purchase things. They are often study abroad students and/or people like me doing ESL in Asia. I was going to buy Mass Effect, but not I might resort to piracy just to be able to get the game because your system has prevented people like me from legally purchasing your goods.

It was fun times, but I am sad it came down to this.


Ugh.. so many things happened over the last week:

-I just moved my mom out of her old place. It took us days to do it but it finally got done. The place is much nicer than her old apartment and almost feels like a hotel. The cat doesn't like it, but we are working on that. No wireless, but I can go downstairs for it so its not a big deal (Hopefully won't be here longer than a week anyways). It even has a little shopping mart inside the building that is decently priced so my mom can get milk or cat stuff without leaving the area. Sweet.

-Going to interview for my Visa on Thursday for Korean job in Seattle. Will leave tomorrow and come back sometime Thursday. Than I go to party at Heather's place, die for a day and then come back to life and hopefully leave next week. I really want to get my new life started, ugh, this is so fucking annoying.

-Also went to Heather's "Got a new job!" event Saturday. Same crew as usual (with Rachel this time). Notable because I actually saw Dani for the first time in like.... 3-4 years I think.

-Saw Avatar finally... in 3D! I actually liked it, partially because my expectations were lowered by most of my friends hating on it. The whole "Its a Pocahantas ripoff" issue didn't bug me that much, since its a fairly old story cliche in itself. I always look for a movie that does something with the plot, not hoping it will be 100% original. Its also nice to see a 3D movie that is actually worth the experience and not just gimmicky crap (My favorite 3d shot? The opening scene with all the tubes and people coming out of sleep).

-Also, I am going to kill one kitten and/or puppy for every vote that goes for Squall in this current round of the gamefaqs character battle. Emo Squall defeating technicolored hair Terra is a disgrace to the Final Fantasy fandom and any RPG player should vote for Terra. I am dead serious.



-Not only can I now VIEW things on my computer, I can now play newer games (YES I CAN PLAY l4D2 FINALLY) AND it has a BLUE RAY PLAYER. I thank my aunt for buying it, it makes me want to cry. I would make love to it if wasn't a sin on God's green earth and I'd probably fuck up a port really bad. Jesus is it sexy.

-.. am I committing a sin by petting it lovingly?

So I have a job..
... yeah, now I just wait for my visa and GTFO and become a productive member of society.

Other random notes:

-Tanzania was fun. Had a few bug bites and miraculously avoided any sunburns. My biggest annoyance was that it was a trip made for rich white old people which I am clearly not a part of. These people annoyed the shit out of me as they acted like they knew alot about Tanzanian life after being there for a week in these lodges that were hours away from where Tanzanians normally live. I particularly loved how they raved about how great Tanzanian cuisine is and how healthy it is which made me laugh on the inside. I'm no expert on Tanzanian food, but I am pretty sure they don't eat Fillet Mignon (Sorry Lindsey). I am also pretty sure Masala food comes from South Asia, not Africa. And I am 100% sure that they don't eat using all the eating utensils that we have and have separate plates for each person. They did drink the local macro beer (Which is terrible just FYI) so I guess that's ok.

-Went to Borders today to look around. They had a little display called the "Teen Scene" which just showed random manga titles. Not only do I find this a bit insulting to manga readers like me (Manga isn't just for teens) they put Berserk on that display. I should note that Berserk is generally sold in shrink wrap, with an explicit content sticker and the back states that it is for 18 and over. Another reason why Powells will always be heaven to me.

-I also picked up the entire anime series of Fate stay night today. I've actually played the original game (The pornographic one, though it is probably the oddest hentai game I have ever seen) and always wanted to try out the anime since I got tired of fast forwarding through the action scenes in the game. The concept of the series is pretty cool, the characters are not annoying and its nice to see an anime that doesn't oversexualize its female cast or practice misogyny (Though I've been told the sequel did that. Another reason why non-superhero movie sequels are almost always a bad idea).

-OMFGWTFBBQPIE THERE IS A $100+ GIFT SET OF THE ENTIRE G1 TRANSFORMERS. 32589YSDFHAKJDFSFK DO WANT. Too bad I got other things to take care of.. like getting a laptop that isn't a piece of shit so I can play L4D2 instead of having it waste away on my steam account like a forgotten bastard stepchild that you lock in the attic and hope never tries to kill his twin brother in a fit of insanity.

-I have a Ma language Bible and a Bible in the Iraqw (Not Iraqi) language. Why? Because I bet I am the only person in the Vancouver area that has them. I am awesome.

Shitty article on RPGs at gamesutra...
Now, back to what I was originally going to post about.

A few days ago on gamefaqs, I discovered this article on gamesutra by Jeffrey Fleming on the state of RPGs in recent years. The article is essentially arguing that JRPGs are in a down swing, which I am kinda inclined to agree with (The last couple years have been absolutely brutal for gaming in general) but the reasoning in this article is either non-existent or just bad. I'm not going to look into every single statement (half of the article is him essentially whining on how much he liked it better in the past) but just the stuff that really bothers me. So let's get this ball rolling...

Nintendo's DS handheld has been the platform of choice for the bulk of this year's new JRPG releases, and it is this fact that I find most troubling.

You're right, it is VERY troubling that so many JRPGs are coming out on handhelds. The problem is that the people who should worry the most are console users. For those unaware of the gaming scene in Japan, consoles are on a steep decline while portables are on the way up.

Despite having been extremely popular, I suspect that the market for the DS is quietly eroding.

I suspect that you are wrong.

The hardware will soon be in its fourth revision and there is no stated plan for what comes next from Nintendo.

Which is a good thing. That means that Nintendo is going to update it and support it further and don't seem to plan to replace it anytime soon. That means its going to last a long time. And besides, how many revisions did the Gameboy go through before it retired with dignity?

A quick look around on local public transportation will show that most Americans are far more likely to be fondling a cell device or an iPhone/iPod during their idle moments than a Nintendo DS.

When the fuck did the DS became in competition with the cell phones and mp3 players? Hell, I don't think I've ever seen ANYONE play a portable game console while using public transportation. I don't because I get sick while looking down in a moving vehicle.

Once the generous slate of announced DS games for 2010 clears the deck, it will probably be apparent that many of the developers who had previously been focused on the aging handheld will have already left the party.

Yes, because they are going to switch from one of the most successful game systems ever made to systems that are not only less successful, but are also much more expensive to make.

Despite having the highest technical specs for a handheld, Sony's PSP continues to be under-utilized as a platform for RPGs.

Wait, you were bitching about the JRPG genre moving onto the small screen, but are unhappy that the PSP is being underused in your opinion?

I smell hypocrisy.

It could be argued that Nintendo has done more than any other company to bring the Japanese RPG to worldwide attention. Nintendo hardware has been home to such touchstone games as Final Fantasy, Final Fantasy VI, Chrono Trigger, Dragon Quest, Earthbound, and of course, Zelda. But that was a long time ago. Nintendo consoles have not been a significant platform for new JRPGs since the SNES days and the Wii is no exception.

Congratulations Mr. Fleming, you have arrived in the year 1996. Bill Clinton was in the middle of a successful reelection, Saddam Hussein was still just an evil bastard who showed up in movies when we needed a villain and Nintendo was going to realize they just made the stupidest move they ever made. 98% of third party game companies left Nintendo due to their decision to go with the cartridge and try to pull a fast one with Sony.

Another sign of the declining Japanese RPG market is the proliferation of rereleases and remakes of the genre's classic titles. While it certainly helps maintain the audience's flagging enthusiasm and is invaluable for preserving the history of JRPGs, it can't be a healthy development for some of the best games of the year to be revisited classics.

Remaking and rereleasing classic games has been done since the SNES era. This era is not even remotely close to the worst when it comes to this phenomenon. Entire game series (Final Fantasy being the most notable) were ported to the PSX, with some of those ports being remakes of an older game. Once again, welcome to 15 years ago.

It will certainly be a big event when the game arrives in the spring, but I doubt that it will signal a flood of new RPGs from the company. Here we are, over four years into the current hardware cycle, and Square-Enix has been slow to commit its signature widescreen adventures to the new consoles. Instead, the company has largely traded on its past with RPG remakes for handhelds, and now seems more focused on action and strategy titles for the bulk of its future catalog.

The entire gaming industry has been slow to catch on. Adam Sessler even talked about this numerous times on his vlog. Its because the rapid jump in gaming costs + recession forced companies to be more conservative the last few years. Square is clearly planning to amp up the RPG production as I can name atleast 4-7 RPGs that should come out within the next couple years (Variance in numbers due to whether or not you count games that are waiting to come to the USA in the tally).

RPGs are labor intensive and expensive to create. The hardware transition to the Xbox 360 and PlayStation 3 hit Japanese developers hard. The demand for high fidelity visuals made asset creation an order of magnitude more difficult. In the West, sophisticated middleware solutions have sprung up to help mitigate some of this complexity but many Japanese studios have been slow to adapt to the new development landscape. Because of their large scale, RPGs have been particularly squeezed by the technological demands of the new consoles, resulting in only a handful of truly next-generation titles.

As mentioned earlier, this is true with all genres.

The anime and manga bubble has burst.

No it hasn't. Its no longer the "big" thing but that is due to the fact that they've kinda been absorbed into mainstream. If it did burst, you wouldn't see anime routinely being the biggest section in video stores nor would you see new western animation imitating it routinely. This is not like the "Lets-remake-Japanese-superhero-shows!" craze during the 1990s that died in about 3 years.

Grown-ups don't like kids stuff. Despite the industry's fixation on serving a youth demographic, the audience for games is aging and it will age out completely unless developers create work that is relevant to adults.

Funfact for the day: Kids and young people are the game industries primary market. Most adults (Note, I am not counting people around my age group) do not play games, so they do not market to them. Most games that appeal to them are either (a.) Porn or (b.) Gimmicks like nintendogs or the stuff that comes out on the Wii.

And now I feel a bit better after the aggravation today... aah

Dear Livejournal..
Your password system is without question the most unuser friendly system I have ever fucking seen on any sort of website. I can understand password restrictions on length and making you use one symbol/number but don't fucking reject my password change on the grounds that is uncommon. This is fucking livejournal, not my banking account. You do not need to force me to spend 5 minutes trying to get a new password that I might end up forgetting because I had to come up with something I normally don't use and is actually less "safe" than the ones you rejected assholes.


Adam de la Cruz

RPG alignment test..
D&D Online Alignment Test
By David Noonan

Your Character’s Alignment

Based on your answers to the quiz, your character’s most likely alignment is Chaotic Good.

Chaotic Good

A chaotic good character acts as his conscience directs him with little regard for what others expect of him. He makes his own way, but he’s kind and benevolent. He believes in goodness and right but has little use for laws and regulations. He hates it when people try to intimidate others and tell them what to do. He follows his own moral compass, which, although good, may not agree with that of society. Chaotic good is the best alignment you can be because it combines a good heart with a free spirit.

--excerpted from the Player’s Handbook, Chapter 6

Keep in mind the alignment suggested by the quiz is just that: a suggestion. It describes your character no better than a 36-question test would describe you. But it’s a good way to start thinking about how your character acts when confronted with issues of alignment.

Now that your character has taken the test, make a note of which questions scored in the opposite direction from your overall alignment. These exceptions can tell some interesting tales about your character Are you a good character with a greedy streak? Are you a lawful character who can’t stand the village elders? Don’t just roleplay your alignment -- roleplay your alignment exceptions, too. Few characters perfectly embody their alignment choice.

So I'm pretty much in line with Robin Hood and people like MLK. Sweet

I am back.. for now. I will probably disappear again, but I am going through some rough times so I think redoing this will help me a bit.

I wish I were an Alien...
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INTJs’ precision thinking and need for accuracy causes them to be inflexible at times. Having thought out a strategy, the INTJ may stubbornly disregard those who they think have not spent as much time reflecting on an idea as they have. This, along with their drive to produce something significant, can make them demanding and difficult. If their plans and solutions fall short of their high standards, INTJ's feel pressured — as if everything is on the line. "Everything," for an INTJ, is the competence and ability to produce something significant. Fear of not living up to this expectation will increase their stress and possibly dissuade them from risking or trying out their ideas. They may then find themselves thinking about ideas that do not have a meaningful or productive end.

When stress increases, the INTJ can become argumentative and disagreeable. Social interaction, which is not their strength, becomes increasingly difficult for them. Not trusting their own abilities, they become preoccupied with obsessive notions. The INTJ may then find themselves spending an inordinate amount of time fighting horrible thoughts, tempting absurdities, and feelings of worthlessness. Fearful of others recognizing their perceived failure, the INTJ incessantly ruminates about mistakes, inadequacies, weaknesses, ineptness, and incompetence. Because this distracts them from risking what little confidence they may have left in themselves, it therefore keeps them from obtaining the success and achievement they so desperately need.

This lists represent careers and jobs people of your type tend to enjoy doing. The job requirements are similar to the personality tendencies of your personality type. It is important to remember that this is not a list of all the jobs possible. And it is very important to remember that people can, and frequently do, fill jobs that are dissimilar to their personality... this happens all the time...and sometimes works out quite well.

management consultant
computer programmer
environmental planner
new business developer
curriculum designer
biomedical researcher
strategic planner
civil engineer
intellectual properties attorney
editor/art director
financial planner

Losing my religion...

(100%) 1: Baptist (non-Calvinistic)/Plymouth Brethren/Fundamentalist
(97%) 2: Pentecostal/Charismatic/Assemblies of God
(90%) 3: Anabaptist (Mennonite/Quaker etc.)
(90%) 4: Church of Christ/Campbellite
(87%) 5: Methodist/Wesleyan/Nazarene
(75%) 6: Baptist (Reformed/Particular/Calvinistic)
(67%) 7: Congregational/United Church of Christ
(65%) 8: Lutheran
(50%) 9: Anglican/Episcopal/Church of England
(50%) 10: Presbyterian/Reformed
(45%) 11: Seventh-Day Adventist
(37%) 12: Eastern Orthodox
(20%) 13: Roman Catholic

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#1 Confucianism-You believe in structure and order. You feel like benevolent rulers are exactly what is needed so that the people will cooperate. You also think that family is extremely important, and think that respect is necessary for the family unit to survive, especially from younger members. You believe in strong government that teaches each and every person exactly how to live.
#2 Legalism-You believe in a very strong government. No one else is going to get things done, right? Efficiency is incredibly important to your mindset, and you think that strictness is the key to this. If someone does well, they deserve reward. More importantly, if someone messes up, they need ruthless punishment. Basically, you believe the ends justify the means.
More information about this result.
#3 Taoism-You believe that government is generally a pretty stupid thing. You think that all this debate and hassle is too much trouble and is inherantly a bad thing. You prefer to embrace nature and each person's dow, or natural course of life. You think that whatever happens happens.

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#1 Episcopal/Anglican
#2 Evangelical Lutheran Church in America
#3 United Methodist
#4 Presbyterian Church USA
#5 United Church of Christ
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You Are Somewhat Machiavellian

You're not going to mow over everyone to get ahead...
But you're also powerful enough to make things happen for yourself.
You understand how the world works, even when it's an ugly place.
You just don't get ugly yourself - unless you have to!


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